There will be no post regarding my food or my furry animals. I truly felt that God wanted me to share my story of His never ending love so please bare with me and I hope you enjoy my testimony on how God has already begun to answer my prayers...
Faith:
I didn’t think I would be writing another entry til later this week but I can’t wait to share how amazingly wonderful our God is. So last Sunday I decided to get baptized on Father’s day with two intentions. Aside from deciding to change my life around, which by the way is going great (Praise God), I really wanted to invite my dad to come to Church in hopes that he could experience the love of Jesus Christ as I have. Up until my baptism, I believe my dad hadn’t stepped foot in a church for almost 20 years. Now a little background on the family dynamic between my dad could be described in one word, which is “non-existent”… My dad and I haven’t been close for quite some time. Being a first generation Korean and I being the white wash Asian everyone knows me to be, communication is not our strong suit. Language barrier on top of cultural differences makes for a difficult and often times uncomfortable confrontation as to who I am and who I was expected to be. I feel like my dad sat idly by often seeing only the superficial actions of my life without ever seeing the deeper side of me because that would only lead to awkward misunderstandings and miscommunications. I believe I grew up on my own and my dad wasn’t really in the picture. He never knew who I truly was and there was no way he could find out when one or two words every other day signified the gist of our relationship. Despite our lack of relationship, I never yearn to change it because it was so much easier not talking than it was to actually sit down and get to know one another. It wasn’t one of my top priorities and I was merely satisfied in saying “hey dad” when I was home and “see you later” when I left. It wasn’t until I truly knew my Lord Father that I realized how the relationship with my dad was below sub-par. God truly opened my eyes to something I never knew I wanted which was for my own dad to come to church and for him to know the God that I know, who is full of love and hope. I prayed that my baptism would start a fire in my dad’s heart. This is where majority of my quiet time and prayers went and I can humbly say with tears of praise and gratitude in my eyes that God has started a revival in my dad’s heart. Unbeknownst to me, my dad and mom went to my church’s 9am service while I was serving in the nursery. Two missed calls and voicemails later my mom said, “hey, we’re here” and “hey, we’re leaving.” This sent shocks of gratitude through my body, which I can only describe as the Holy Spirit working through me. Could it be that my dad decided to come to another service despite the fact he can barely understand pastor Chuck? Did my dad really just come to church… again??? Was the message really about marriage??? The answer to all these questions wass YES!!!!! After listening to my voicemail I tried to reach my mom but didn’t get through and being I was ready to go to the 11am service I told myself I would call her back when I was done. However I forgot in the midst of my responsibilities as a discipleship trainee and went about fulfilling the duties required by the program. When we finally finished at 7:30pm, yes I was at church for over 12 hrs and yes every minute of it was amazing, I realized I had another missed call, but it was from my dad. I tried to call him back but he didn’t answer and as I walked to my car, I found a note on a flier for women’s ministry that read, “ We love you (Jenn), mom and dad.” Right as I finished reading the words, tears begas to swell up in my eyes, and right at that moment my dad called me back. He called to ask how I was doing and applauded my perseverance in serving all day at church. I could barely get words out of my mouth when my mom asks to speak to me and proceeded to tell me how my dad stood up in tears during the 9am worship and how much they both enjoy coming to Crossroads. God went above and beyond in answering my prayers and I can truly say how blessed I am to serve such a loving God. He truly is my Savior. In 2 Chronicles 7:14 it is written that,
“If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. “
With this I pray,
Dear Lord Father,
I sit here with only one thought in my mind, which is to praise You with all my heart and all my soul. I am so unworthy of Your love and yet You never cease to give so abundantly. Words are not enough to describe Your endless love and I can’t wait for the day when I come before You and You welcome me home. I pray that I only grow more and more in my faith and I just want to say how much I fall in love with You every day. I pray that as I discipline myself in Your word that my heart is revived each and every time. I pray that I always thirst for You and that my thirst is never satisfied except when I drink of You. You alone are worthy and You alone provide. I love you God and the grace You have shown me and my dad. I pray that he continues to feel Your presence working through him and that he steps forward into Your arms. Let the small fire you have lit in his heart ignite with passion and zeal for You Father. I humbly fall on my knees and thank You once again for the work You are doing in my life. I love You!!!
Always,
Your humble servant.
With this I invite all the women who read this to number 1, Radiant Woman's Bible Study on Thursday nights at 6:45 and number 2, everyone to Generate on Wednesday nights at 7:30... It will truly change your life... It has for me, and it continues to do so... Message me if you have any questions!!!!
